Air It Out--- "Stranger"

Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide.
You treat me like a queen when we go out,
wanna show everyone what our love's about.
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd,
But when no ones around;

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in every way,
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed.
Your plan is working so you can just walk away,
Baby your secret's safe.

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Such a long way back, from this place that we are at.
When I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry..

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

---"Stanger"  Hillary Duff
Thanks to my shuffle I re-found out what this song was talking about. 

Fight the Good Fight

I've wrestled this circumstance in my heart and my mind
It's grip grows stronger - and how defenseless am I?
The grip of pride, impatience, and pain
The grip of uncertainty - of things insane

Lord I need your light on this ambiguous path
I need your hand - I may need your wrath
But I will hold strongly to you as this match drags on
Until it is finished and the bell has rung

Let them all rejoice the winner in this tainted fight we purge
Lord, no matter my closing stature I will not have the urge...
Of vengeance, of hate, of sorrow or loss
For you put Christ in my corner when you put him on the cross

My victory will not be in the understanding of Man
It will be in your honor, in your name, in your glory - Amen.


by ME :)

Hello Lover---

What have I taught myself?
What have I allowed myself to be considered Love? Intimacy? Passion?
The heart seeks to encounter, not conquer, the one it calls to as "lover."

Here I am relearning. 
Here I am opening myself to new forms of physicality that are not what I've considered intimate and passionate before.  The shallow-waters of a simple touch.  The simplicity of a kiss.  The gentleness of hair being brushed from my cheek.  Allowing the "love" in my life to be himself and comfortable in his skin. Being patient as he grows into a matured mate.  Respecting the time needed for the channel of pure openness to create between us.  This is my new intimacy. Understanding is my new sensuality. 

"Man... is always an individual, a unique entity, different from everybody else.  He differs by his particular blending of character, temperament, talents, disposition, just as he differs at his fingertips.  He can affirm his human potentialities only by realizing his individuality.  The duty to be alive is the same as the duty to become oneself, to develop into the individual one potentially is."  --- Erich Fromm

The Bully In Me

As Christians, I believe we are called to play an unusual role in dealing with bullies. It is not a role the world plays-filled with anger and vengeance. It is not a role of passivity. It is not a role of hate. We can't gratify our flesh and play tit-for-tat games. In other words, it's not easy.

We are called to love our enemies, to pray for them, but to stand firm against unrighteousness and injustice. We are called to draw a line in the sand about our beliefs. We aren't aggressive, but we are assertive. We aren't boastful, but we are confident about our God's wishes for His people. Most importantly, we can't ignore the problem.

Facing the problem takes courage - addressing the problem takes work - solving the problem takes the bully out of your life. 

I have been a bully to myself.
No. Satan has been a bully to me but he uses my thoughts and words and actions against me.  In a small moment I can switch off the power of good and leave myself vulnerable to the power of evil.  How easily I have let him take control....  I must be courageous, I must do the work, so that I can live His Life.

"Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong."

1 Corinthians 16:13

"He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God."  

Micah 6:8